The hours I can never get back..

..that i've spent looking on friggin stock photography sites saddens me.

Ok. Im better now.

So alright. I slept a little, thought about something other than my projects for a while, and i came out thinking "yea, it is as bad as i feel like it is, but ill live. i think." I thank everyone for the comments on my blog and incidently, my mother was right--i do feel a little better knowing that im not the only one losing my mind. As wrong as that sounds. I also thank you all for the ecard you sent when i missed class...its cool to know that people are behind you.

So i apologize for all the coughing in class..ive been hella sick...as if i have all the time to sit around and steep in my fever. I probably wouldnt have even gone if i hadnt used up my missed class the week before. hope im not an outbreak monkey and get anyone sick. it pissed me off to be sick though because since i psyched myself back up for the class my brain-frying coma made me unproductive again. i cant win. but i figure if i die from my illness i wont have to retake the class. thats my only out.

Ok, so ive also realized that my blog will never be fancy and photo fun, and i know why. take steve, for example, very pretty blog. He's a graphic designer. Me, no fancy graphics, and a lot of blah blah blah. Im a writer. And there you have it. my fancy's in the writing. and although id like it to be more flashy, unless i hire an outside decorator, it probably wont get that visually pleasing--just a lot of blah blah blah.

Now for the exciting news. Yes, i have to finish my ad campaign (that was the bastard that sent me over the edge) and i still have all the revisions to do, but i have some FANTASTIC ideas for my imovie. we are talkin a story of homeric proportion. i just have to figure out the specific conflict--but the characters are already dancing in my head. now, hopefully ill just be able to actually do it. That is my biggest frustration with this class..its like i have all these great ideas for layout but when its time to find images i always fall short. so this way ill be able to make the scenes myself, just have to figure out the details. but the foundation for the next iliad is in the makes. hold on.

Thanks again for the support everyone and have a kick ass time off. see you in blogywood.

You wanted blogs? Here's your blog.

I'm over it. My projects suck and no matter how much i try to work on my stuff, it seems like im in full blown exhaustion and crazy come friday nite. My new goal is to have one week everything i need to have done is finished by thursday...ok...friday morning...ok...friday early evening--6 at the latest. ok, 830. That's my new goal.

So it's friday morning, im working early as hell, and im thinking of completely scrapping my whole campaign and starting over. I just cant pull it together. Ive started the whole "screw it, im dropping the class" thought process, but that's normal for me in a time of stress...it wont happen, its just my strange way of releasing some of the stress the assignments cause me. And i really like stephanie and amy--they arent the problem, i am.

I'm losin it. My mother always tells me "misery loves company," so i'm writing this to publicly display my loss of sanity and try to assure myself i cant be the only one feeling like this. Am i the only one who questions what the hell im doing here? And how the hell im gonna finish the semester...

"YOU ARE ALL PAWNS IN MY DEVIANT PLAN!"

I already knew i'd suck at blogging...

But now i've proved myself. This is a lot of work for a girl who doesn't even check her myspace email (did i say myspace? i meant..uh..oh..who cares at this point). So fine, i'll use the time im supposed to be proofreading financial documents to blog. i'll stop bitching. But if anyone out there gets a prospectus that is for the Mid-Cap Sock Fund, i don't want to hear any whining.

So now that i'm back, i have big plans--but first i have to figure out how to scan things (without a scanner), create links, add pics, and spruce up my blog to be like "ooh, ahh" when you look at it. If anyone can tell me how to do this, i'd be happy. My lonely, one-entried black page is depressing. I want it to be soooo much more. Oh yea, by the way, the amount of work for this class is insane. But that's cool. I'll work it out.

So, i scrapped my boring "category" subject for two reasons. First, there was really no great way to categorize cheese that hasnt already been so done. Secondly, i was going to do it for Bon Appetite, but the pictures in that mag are hella beautiful and short of buying 40 tons of cheese from Wegmans and trying to shoot my own great images, my images from some stock photo place will not compare, thus having a crappy spread.

So, i'm going with a different topic. Being that i worked in the restaurant business for 11 years, i know alot about patrons (or, the guest, as we'd call them) and could identify what kind of table they would be before even taking their drink order. That's because all diners fall into certain CATEGORIES...AH HA! I'm not sure what mag, perhaps Maxim, but if anyone has any suggestions have at it. Steve, i know you're out there...help a sister out.

So i should get back to work. Hopefully Stephanie and Amy will forgive me for my own tardiness to my party. I'll make it up, i swear..